Friday 22 February 2008

The old man reading the newspaper

Have you ever felt you have no friends? have you ever felt that you will grow up to be old to find that you are alone?
I am sure most of us felt this way at least once in their lifetime. But what did we do about it? Most of the time we just decide that we need to be more with people and that's it. But i think it's more complex than this it's that permanent internal feel of loneliness that we all fear ,the feeling that you will spend your days lonely.
Sometimes when i am at the club i see a group of old men sitting together chatting and laughing but soon i realize there is also a man sitting alone at the corner of the room reading his newspaper. At this moment i wonder how will i be when i grow up? will i be among this group of men sitting happily together or will i be sitting alone like this man? soon after this i feel soooo depressed i know that i am not good at dealing with people. i believe i am not a good friend i don't call my friends that much and that caused me to lose a lot of friends in the past few years. i tried a lot but it came at no use. i guess i will be the old man reading the newspaper