College is almost over

I have always wanted to finish college, in fact I dreamt about the day I no longer have to study anything, the day I would be considered a grown up, the day I would be self-dependent, the day I would go out into the world, the day I take decisions concerning my own life. This day is so close now, it is only one and a half month away.

However, I have a mixed feeling right now. I'm so confused I don't know how I should feel. Happy, yeah I will finish college, I don't have to wake up so early everyday, I don't have to work all day and night on projects. I can live my life now freely. Sad, I won't be able to see my friends and colleagues as often as before, some people I'm sure I won't see them ever again. I think it's pythetic but I will miss all the proffessors too. I will miss our class, class 202. I spent 4 years in this class I have lots of memories. I will miss my TAs. However, the dominant feeling is definately WORRIED! Any decision I take now would affect the rest of my life. I don't know what the future would present me with. I don't know what the right choice is. I don't know anything. I have so many options about my career and there is no clue which is the best one.

I no longer want time to pass I just want it to freeze. I don't want to finish college unless I'm sure about what I want to do. I can't just be out there in the wild with no clue.